This morning, I went for my annual mammogram, except it was more like a half-decade mammogram since I haven't had one since I was 35. Bad, I know.
After my exam, I sat in a cool, quiet room waiting for my results. I intentionally chose a clinic that would provide them immediately. And, while I waited, I thought about all the people I know who over the last year waited just like me, and in the end found out they had cancer. These include two girlfriends from college, another girlfriend's husband and my own brother.
As I waited, I thought about my life and I thought about dying and I contemplated my purpose. Then the tech came in and told me my mammogram looked good. Relieved, I came home and forced myself to finish watching a video I told myself I just couldn't bear to finish the other day. It is the Christian testimony, (Death is Not Dying) of the beautiful and articulate Rachel Barkey, 37. This wife and mother of two is dying of cancer, and when she gave this testimony on March 4, she had six to 18 weeks to live.
Rachel Barkey with her husband and children.
The video is 54 minutes long and it is gut-wrenching, though inspiring. If you don't have time or the emotional stamina to watch it in one sitting, I suggest breaking it up into 15 minutes segments over a four-day period.
When you are finished watching it, you will know Rachel's purpose, and you may discover your own. If, while watching it you wonder why Rachel (or anyone) must ever suffer, rest assured Rachel answers the tough question.For more about Rachel visit Death is Not Dying.
11 comments:
Jen, I was so deeply moved by this video. What an amazing person. Thanks for passing it on.
I will watch the video when I am feeling brave.
I am so glad that your mammogram was perfect. You just reminded me that I need to go for mine. It has been way too long. Thank you.
Hugs,
Debbie
Well,I am happy you took care of yourself and got that mam. I have two friends going through chemo right now and both have a very agressive kind of breast cancer. They are both bravely pushing through. My own mother had breast cancer 5 years ago and she is so helpful to other woman. She tells her story and encourages. I will view the video, thanks for sharing.
hello hon - glad you have been given the all clear ...
thanks for your nomination - I will go find yours now - many hugs le xoxoxo
I'm too chicken to watch right now... But I promise I will, if you promise you won't wait so long before your next checkup!
Aunt J,
You should watch this video too, I thought it was very moving (you might have seen it).
"The Last Lecture"
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo
This is the website for the guy in the video.
http://download.srv.cs.cmu.edu/~pausch/
What an inspiring lady! Thank you for posting this link on your blog. Rachel's words will be an encouragement to everyone who hears them. I'm so glad you are alright. Blessings on you, Jen.
Love, Lin
@ALL - I was so moved by this, too. Her words - my purpose is to serve with joy are in my heart forever.
@MUFFIN MAN - Thank you for that link! I'll check it out. Also, Juliette is standing over my shoulder saying "Muffin Man" repeatedly and laughing. Oh, to be 11 and find humor in such simplicity. I must say, it is quite original!
LOL@Ju
There is actually a very long story behind the nickname... I got it while playing a video game with some friends (40 of them to be specific).
Whoever said computer games aren't social is insane!
I too was deeply moved by Rachel, such an inspiring person.
Thanks Jen, it is always a very difficult subject to talk about.
Hugs
Peggy
I'll be hard to watch, but I will watch it. It's the least I could if she's going to put herself out there for everyone to see.
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