This morning, I went for my annual mammogram, except it was more like a half-decade mammogram since I haven't had one since I was 35. Bad, I know.
After my exam, I sat in a cool, quiet room waiting for my results. I intentionally chose a clinic that would provide them immediately. And, while I waited, I thought about all the people I know who over the last year waited just like me, and in the end found out they had cancer. These include two girlfriends from college, another girlfriend's husband and my own brother.
As I waited, I thought about my life and I thought about dying and I contemplated my purpose. Then the tech came in and told me my mammogram looked good. Relieved, I came home and forced myself to finish watching a video I told myself I just couldn't bear to finish the other day. It is the Christian testimony, (Death is Not Dying) of the beautiful and articulate Rachel Barkey, 37. This wife and mother of two is dying of cancer, and when she gave this testimony on March 4, she had six to 18 weeks to live.
Rachel Barkey with her husband and children.
The video is 54 minutes long and it is gut-wrenching, though inspiring. If you don't have time or the emotional stamina to watch it in one sitting, I suggest breaking it up into 15 minutes segments over a four-day period.
When you are finished watching it, you will know Rachel's purpose, and you may discover your own. If, while watching it you wonder why Rachel (or anyone) must ever suffer, rest assured Rachel answers the tough question.For more about Rachel visit Death is Not Dying.
