Looking for God
Looking for God in those 2 a.m. cigarettes, as we look to the stars in the sky on all those many nights. --Ode to Generation X, 2009
I've never smoked a cigarette, but if I did, and it just so happened to be at 2 a.m., I'm pretty certain that alone in the smoke and the lamplight, I'd be looking toward God. I'd be inhaling on all the years that have rocketed by and exhaling on all the things I can't change - like people I love growing up or growing old or moving away.
I'd be inhaling on my cautious hopes for tomorrow and exhaling on how I wish for my Bridgy and Sully and Juliette -- and Juliette -- and Juliette -- a perfect world with no sorrow or pain.
And, then I'd inhale on bigger hope, because life is short and I want to seize the day.
Then I'd close my eyes and exhale at the thought of my children -- laughing and smiling -- with most of their lives still ahead of them; and my husband Robert, his black hair salted more and more with each passing day.
Not Cigarettes, But Prayer
And, then I'd breathe in again at the thought of my own mortality, and that one day, I will leave this world, and I hope my living matters - even if only to them.
And, suddenly, I'd let go of my breath, so glad there is a God who understands that all this inhaling and exhaling at 2 a.m. is not cigarettes, but prayer.
And, then, I'd ask Him for a miracle - whatever kind He thinks I might need -- because it never hurts to ask.
Are you there God? It's me, Generation X.
Message For You
Yes, you, person staring at the screen. Person who read all the way down to this point. You finally made it here to the Gen X blog. Thank you for being here. Thank you for not clicking away. I know everyone is competing for your attention.
I've been blogging about Generation X for almost a decade. When I first started writing about us, some people thought the idea of a blog devoted to Gen-Xers was pretty weird. But, now, after nearly 10 years, it's started to catch on. Mostly, because we're all getting older and time is slipping away.
- Our parents are dying
- Our children are growing up
- We're not young anymore
As more and more time passes, we find we have a deeper connection to those who lived through the same stuff that we did.
- Growing up latchkey
- Coming of age with AIDS
- Enduring the Cold War -- with the help of MTV, of course.
- And so much more
I have worked so hard to build this blog. I've poured so much time into it -- and I did it for you -- and other Gen-Xers like you -- who are still trying to figure out where they belong in the world -- and if anyone cares that they're alive. YOU BELONG RIGHT HERE -- WITH YOUR GENERATION. Your birth, your life is not an accident. You were born for a purpose! The Psalmist tells us that God knew you before you were even born. He loves you. He wants to restore you. He and He alone can and will make everything in your life new again.
There's a Proverb that says, we make our plans, but the only the Lord knows which way we will go. He has ordered your steps, and that is why I am so grateful you came here today. Please stick around. Subscribe to my monthly newsletter. Use that form in the light green box in the right-hand sidebar, or below, if you're reading on mobile. Also, join the Facebook page. I want to stay in touch with you and would love to hear your story.
Gen-Xers: Losing My Religion
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
In 1986, Dieter Zander launched a church in Covina, California called New Song. His hope was to bring the Gospel of Jesus Christ to Generation X, a generation the church has struggled to reach. “Perhaps no other generation has needed the church so much,” Zander famously wrote. “Yet sought it so little.” Here are a few reasons why:
Generation X grew up with a number of church and religious scandals that made headlines. These included:
- The ostentatious television sets and endless pleas for financial support and offerings
- Jim Bakker’s infidelity (Jim and Tammy Fay Bakker)
- Marvin Gorman’s infedility
- Jimmy Swaggart’s attacks on Bakker and Gorman for their infidelity, following the discovery that Swaggart, too, had engaged in a number of affairs with prostitutes.
Church can leave your wondering where to find God.
How To Find God
Many times throughout my life I have sought to find God. I have sought His presence in my life for nearly 50 years. And, of course, I have sought many answers to my deepest prayers. I have never found Him more than in this is the book of life. Every time you open it up and read it you will be blessed. Your life will change forever, with each new day, for you will literally be breathing in the very God who gave you breath.
May I also suggest another book that really changed my life? It's called The Jesus I Never Knew by Phillip Yancey. I promise, it will open your heart to so many miracles! In addition, you may want to check out this big, long post I wrote, Who Is Generation X?
More Posts on Faith and How To Find God
To discover more posts on faith and God please visit the CATEGORIES page where you'll find more 30 different categories by which I organize posts. You can also visit the TAGS page. It features more than 300 tags, which is a second tier of organization. Have fun looking around. There are a lot of posts about faith and God on this blog. Thank you!
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